No, Mom, you don’t need a significant other to do a boudoir session
I am a recently divorced 35-year-old Mom/Veterinarian who needed some reassurance in life. COVID has put strain on everyone and I'm definitely feeling it over here. I have never been a confident person and I don't know if I've ever considered myself sexy or really beautiful. Getting older makes you look at things (including yourself) differently and
I have decided that I can be sexy if I want to and I can do things that I normally wouldn't do.
That is how I ended up here...
My reason for doing this session was to prove to myself as well as any people casting their shadows of judgment and doubt over me, that I can do anything and be anything if I have the right frame of mind.
I wanted to gain the confidence I was missing and become empowered as a strong, sexy woman.
No, Mom, you do not have to do this for your significant other - I did this for me!!
I wanted to feel beautiful. I wanted to feel sexy. And I wanted to be able to look back on this experience and the way I looked and felt in that moment and truly believe that I am amazing.
What was I celebrating? My divorce!! Woo Hoo! I'm a free bitch, baby!
Most women say they were nervous and excited before their session. I guess I really didn't know how to feel because I didn't know what to expect.
After reading other women's stories, somehow, I knew it would be fine and I was at peace with that.
It was like standing in the dressing room at Victoria's Secret where I'm awkwardly modeling lingerie for the woman trying to sell it to me. Molly was very supportive and honest about my wardrobe choices. We came up with a plan and got to work where
Molly gave me a crash course in how to breathe again.
At first I wondered if I was doing it correctly, then Molly showed me one of the shots on her camera and something changed inside of me. I felt like I was now a VS model or something and I was going to rock this. And I did.
At one point, Molly positioned me on the bed and I immediately felt like Rose in Titanic and we both go "I want you to draw me like one of your French girls."
I did not expect to feel this comfortable being nude in front of a woman I just met that day. It felt funny and awkward at times when Molly would position me in poses that I would never do while taking a selfie, but I trusted her and we made a great team.
I was more nervous after the session to see what my photos were going to look like and if I'd even like looking at myself that way.
The first run-through was weird, for sure.
But the more I looked at them, the more I liked them.
It was so hard to narrow it down because I had fallen in love with all of them despite some very minor flaws.
(*Shoutout to my nostril/kneecap-hating soulmate.)
I think I feel more empowered after my session. Like, if I can be naked and vulnerable in fort of a camera lens and love myself, I can do anything.
I think every woman should have this experience at least once in their life. It is pretty amazing to see yourself in a different light. It may change your perception for the better and that's what makes it all worth it.
Molly - You were amazing! You have a truly beautiful gift. I love what you've done for me; thank you sooo much!! xoxo