August is here! Which means I am turning over a new leaf to age 29.
Some may think that’s young while others see it as old,but I am not sure how I really see it? I am not happy or sad, however I feel confident in making it a good year for me regardless of what happens.
As I get older each year, I feel an overwhelming amount of pressure added to my shoulders. I still am not sure if it is from society, myself or probably a mixture of both, but it’s fucking heeeeeavy! I feel like by this time in my life I should have had my shit figured out (whatever that means)? If not married, in a serious relationship working towards it. Have a more in depth and rewarding career path. In general, just not be so… fucking spacey, but I am.
In some ways, I almost feel like I am moving backwards. It’s always hard to hear when people are “worried” about you and what you’re going to do in life especially when you try so hard to achieve it for yourself.
I read something recently a good friend sent me after exhaling all of this on him and it hit me. Right. In. My. CORE:
Don’t rush the universe.
Someone will graduate at 21,
But wait 5 years to get a good job.
Someone with no education
Will be a millionaire at 21.
Someone will get married at 20,
But divorce 5 years later.
Someone will get married at 30,
But find everlasting love.
You’re NOT late.
You’re NOT early.
You’re on time.
The one thing I can say though is that my self-worth has skyrocketed in the last year and I owe a lot of that to being a brand ambassador for Molly.
I know it sounds cliche, but to become proud of your body through the art she provides is something I would never have thought possible.
I have high expectations for this year mainly because I know I am beautiful, talented, and worth it.
Maybe a guy will never see that. Maybe I will never get that next career step. Maybe I won’t have that “normal” life. One thing I will know though is, I am not settling for anything because I know what I am worth. Finally, and no one can take that from me.