Doing a boudoir shoot is something I've been dreaming about since I was a kid.
Seriously, I always admired pinups, Victoria’s Secret angels and women on magazines. And not just because of the obvious beauty of all women, but because of the confidence and sass that these women on the pages seemed to embody. I never thought I'd actually go through with this but when the opportunity arose to work with Zealous Stills I knew it was something I had to do. I wanted to capture a side of myself that had been dying to get out. A fierce, sassy and totally embodied side of myself.
I'm a 27 year old yoga teacher. I've lived a lot of life in my short years. I've lived all over the world, I've studied yoga, mediation and the healing arts.
I became nervous a few days before the shoot but it was all for silly, self conscious reasons. I was afraid my hair wasn't going to look good or that my cellulite would be showing. But I knew that I wanted to capture my sexy confidence in the photos so I prepared by doing things that made me feel sexy and confident. I repeated my affirmations, I did yoga, I spent time with my friends. I did the things that made me FEEL good so that when the day came I would be totally filled up with good vibes and love.
I really just wanted to capture where I'm at in my life right now and the awesome woman that I think I have become.
I wasn't even nervous at all. Everyone on set was so chill and put me at ease. I didn't even worry about not having modeling experience. Molly had it under control and directed me so gracefully it's like everything just fell into place naturally.
I felt so comfortable and free when it came to the fully nude images. I'm confident in my skin but I was surprised how authentic I felt without any clothes on. It was almost like, "Why aren't we always doing this?!" It's amazing how when you take off your mask and clothes you can feel mostly fully your Self and I can tell that it came through in the images because those are my favorite ones.
I was surprised by how easy it was and how natural it felt.
I felt sassy and beautiful for the rest of the day and even after. I was so proud of myself for doing something I've always wanted to do. Plus I was dyyyyying to see the final product!
Years ago I dreamed of doing something like this but never thought I could... that it was too far out of reach for someone like me. I guess I was just playing small in life and in my confidence.
It wasn't until I actually completed the shoot that I recognized how much I've grown as a woman. These images capture so much for me... they represent my evolution, my sexiness and my authentic self. When I look at them now I see so much more than a hot babe (which is totally part of it!) but I see myself as whole, perfect in my imperfection and capable of so fucking much. Queen, goddess, wild woman... whatever you want to call- I am OWNING my femininity <3
If you're even considering it you absolutely MUST! It was so freeing, confident boosting and really cathartic too.
Thank you so much Molly for making this a memory I will cherish for a lifetime. Like the nude sketch in Titanic... even my grandchildren will admire these pictures one day. I am so grateful that you could help me check this off my bucket-list and make it one of the best experiences I've invested in. Not only did you capture some fun shots, you've helped me own my confidence, my sass and made me look damn good!